NOTE: If you're not into the whole Post-Modern way of thinking, then this journal/discussion is bound to give you a bad time. However, if you like discussing these sort of psychological and story-driven things, then you'll need to prepare yourself for a lot of crazy banter on my behalf.
Now this is something that I've written journals and had polls up on Deviant Art about. For many people, it's just another non-issue, and in the grand scheme of things, it is a non-issue (especially when one considers real-life struggles and what not)... But as a creative mind who seems to tackle any problem with no problem at all, this is something that I seriously can't wrap my mind around.Arthur... Arthur is freaking everywhere and everything.
But how? I am Arthur! Well, yes... But I'm talking about the characterization of myself, Arthur... Arthur the what you ask?
Let's look at what exactly "Arthur" as has become. Let's start with some pictures....
But wait there's more!
A raven for Sonic the Hedgehog (Artie the Raven)
A horned pegasus for My Little Pony (Dark Moon)
A Na'vi for Avatar (Art'e)
A Djinn (originally was supposed to explain all the forms, but it holds no weight for anything outside of my own original universe.)
And now recently we have this:
So what's going on exactly? To be honest with you, I have no clue. Perhaps I have a split personality disorder and I don't even know it?
One user on here, LookieItsCookie
has suggest that my "persona" is not a single character, but an "idea". This makes sense because when you think about it, all the variations I've created of my "sona" often share similarities to one another. You could essentially boil it down to the fact that he is a "big handsome man with long hair and elven features". But even if they all physically have similar features, they take on slightly different personalities, often based on whatever mood I am in for the day. For example, the goat was just the result of seeing so many goats from Undertale fan art in which I simply imagined "what if Arthur was a goat?"
But what exactly is the problem? For some of you, this would be wonderful to imagine a concept and be able to apply it to so many things. Well, that's just the problem... I basically have a character who can be anything they want to be, to the point that they might as well be nothing at all.
If I really wanted to stretch the logic (as in, put on your tin-foil hat kind of stretching) I could very well argue that "Arthur/Althazar the Sona" has become a Tulpa; a thought-form with a mind of it's own. However, it's impossible for him to truly be a Tulpa because outside of say, having a bigger body or being something non-human, he essentially is nearly exactly like me in terms of personality and mindset... Basically, he isn't an entity that thinks on his own, which often what makes a Tulpa what it is.
But we could argue that Arthur/Althazar is in fact, an Archetype of sorts. He is an intelligent and emotional person who despite his physical appearance making him very menacing and monstrous, turns out to be a heroic and helpful character. He may not be the hero of the story or setting he is in, and more often than not is he the anti-hero, but his intentions are always for the good of the people or those he has close to him.
Thus, it would explain why I've been able to just spam so many forms and ideas of this characterization of myself around for. There is pretty much no setting where a "big guy with a big heart" can't fit in. Sci-fi or fantasy, the small town or the big city, and even in settings where humans aren't present can I use this "idea of myself" to easily plant myself into that setting.
And that's what I think the problem is... I just have no idea what I want to be, because really, I could be anything at all and still be able to express myself in some form or another.
Which is disastrous when you want to write a story starring pretty much the only character who's survived your artistic adventures. Outside of Helena and recurring theme with fat gator chicks, Arthur is the only characterization who has been something I've been continuously drawing for my time being here. Obviously, there's going to be a story about him because it's simply the person I know best (duh, it's myself).
I know you guys think I over think these things, but the truth is, this stuff seriously puzzles me.